On the Journey of Self Discovery

 My last post was 5  years ago, which in turn was 5 yrs after the post before it. This trend of posting after every 5 years has to stop now.

A lot has happened in these 5 years. I have been blessed with another child, who is now 4 yrs old. Life has taken a 360 deg turn and I find myself at the starting line again, but with the experience of the 360 degrees, so hoping to fair better.

The universe has been very kind to me and already gave me umpteen chances to do what I really wanted to do, but I never realised it. Faced with many challenges and circumstances. Now, this chance is a do or die. When I think about it, I feel these experiences have made me a stronger and resilient mommy and a human being.

Mommy is my  first and most favourite identifier. For the longest time, it was my only identifier and bringing up two small kids, I was happy in that small world. With my kids growing up and developing their own personalities, I got a feeling that my kids don't want "Mommy" to be my only identifier, especially my daughter. This jolted me out of my laziness and slumber to realise that I could do much more and can't hide behind the excuse of being a mommy of small kids anymore. My dearest darlings also made me realise that if they see a strong independent woman role model in front of them, the daughter would aspire to be one and son will appreciate such women. 

It's not at all what we tell kids, but all the time, it's what they see and observe. Kids learn family dynamics and husband - wife relations only by observing. If a dad keeps shouting at the mom, the kids pick up on that easily, no matter how much the father tells his kids to respect their mom. If dad doesn't respect mom, kids don't respect mom. If kids witness a lot arguments between hubby and wife, they feel insecure about their family staying together. Any ways, this topic is for another day. Today is the day of making a vow to myself.

Today, 8th August 2021, I make a solemn vow and a pinky promise to my kids that their mommy is gonna have an identity that signifies NEHA JYOTISHI, not just D/O, W/O, M/O. So, it will inspire them to have their own identity irrespective what the world thinks of that identity.

So, with renewed energy of the faith and awe my kids have towards me, I step back into the blogsphere and the world in general.

Stay Safe, Stay Calm, Stay Happy.